2015.

Whoa.  I am blogging.  I haven't done this much lately.  Seems this baby who kicks the living crap out of me daily also sucked all my thoughts and ability to sit down and type them out.  I have had several people say stuff to me lately about blogging.  People compliment my writing sometimes and it absolutely makes my heart soar.  I think God uses other people to give us a kick in the pants when we need it and I really felt convicted that those people were my kick in the pants.  I like to encourage people and I feel like maybe sometimes I do that when I write.  Being more of an encourager is on my list of things I want to do this year.  This blog reaches more people than I can on my own, so I am going to try to blog at least twice a month.  With Deacon arriving soon, I hope I can stick to it.  I think I can.  I am also committing to memorizing two bible verses a month.  If you know me, you know just how hard this is going to be.  I have always just allowed myself to say "I am terrible at memorization." and not apply myself to memorizing scripture.  Not this year.  The Holy Spirit is live and active in me.  Why in the world would I think that it would not fully equip me and help me memorize scripture.  Nope, it won't be easy.  That is ok.   I am hoping to be back down to pre-baby weight at some point this year.  No deadlines on that.  One day at a time.  I am so ready to be able to work out again though.  Which leads me to a Deacon update.  Deacon is this rambunctious little boy growing in my belly.  We picked his name because it means "one who serves" in Greek.  I want him to be a lover of Christ and a servant of Christ all the days of his life.  I pray that over him.  I pray that he have wisdom.  "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom" Proverbs 9:10(and like 7 other instances where this is said in the bible).There is never really a time when he is not moving.  Ever.  No, I do not drink a ton of caffeine.  Apparently I am just growing a hyperactive little one.  I hope he is getting it all out of his system now.  People keep saying I will miss those kicks.  I really have a hard time with that one.  I thought I would love everything about pregnancy...that is a negative.  I haven't enjoyed it really.  I am beyond thankful for it.  I am so thankful that God heard my cry and that I am being allowed to bring a little boy into this world.  But I do not enjoy pregnancy.  It is a means to an end.  I am racing towards the prize and Praise Jesus it is almost time for me to have the greatest prize in my arms!!  I am ready to feel normal again.  I am ready to walk for more than 100 feet with out my hips hurting.  I am ready to run again.(my version of run which is a really ugly jog to most people).  My eating has gotten all off track with pregnancy so I know I will have to struggle to regain that after pregnancy.  But I am ready for it.  I want to travel some in 2015.  I will be limited at first but hopefully we can take a trip sometime in the year.  We will celebrate 5 years of marriage this year.  I told Dustin that had to have earned me something in life to put up with him for that long :)  Kidding.  Sort of.  I love him more every day.  I am also really praying over and trying to commit myself to keeping Dustin ahead of Deacon.  I know many moms tend to get so caught up in their children that their husband takes a back seat.  Many of them don't even mean to, it just happens.  I know that it will have to be a conscious effort on my part to not do that.  The proper order (after Jesus, of course) is my husband and then my children.  I never want our relationship to fall to the wayside.  It will be easier for us to maintain because we are home together all day, but I still feel like I have to be intentional about it.  So I have been really trying to commit that to prayer.  What are you committing to or trying this year?  What is the Lord laying on your heart?